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I went there after working at Artemis' to give Neuvillette some service as well...there wasn't much left. It's like he never even existed here.

I'm sorry for putting my own issues on you, I wasn't going to tell you yet, not when you have your own things.

Oh... already. I see.

Don't be sorry! He was important to you, so I want to be able to be there for you while you're going through this, Wrio!

My things been... a thing for a while.

It wasn't much, just a shirt that barely even had his scent on it anymore and some other things I didn't take. I only took the shirt.

I want you to focus on doing whatever you and Quentin are doing, that would make me feel better. You've been after him for awhile.

Neuvillette and me....I don't think that was ever meant to be. I'll get over it eventually.

Alright.

[Hayato will look forward to some rain and think of Neuvillette. That guy was nice...]

I just never expected him to notice how interested I was, y'know? Uh... We're not doing anything. I left him on read for a while, because I was too scared to respond.

I don't agree, but I know you are strong and will get over him eventually, yeah. There's no time limit on those things, though. It will get easier, but don't try to rush through any of this, painful as it is.

I'm here if you need anything.

You should reply back to him

[He's going to probably have a hard time seeing any rainfall for some time himself.]

He couldn't love me...Neuvillette I mean. I told him I loved him, told him how I never thought it was appropriate to be more than what we were, not cause I didn't want to.

He...He didn't think we should...

I will. I just... need to make sure I do it right.

[It's too important a relationship to say too much or too little in response. He needs to clarify with Beck if they're interested in trying to be... more than friends.]

It means different things for different people, Wriothesley. You're worthy of so much love. I don't think anyone was as close to him as you. Him being gone is not your fault.

I'll answer my phone if you need more advice...I just...I don't be as helpful as I could be right now. I'm sorry.

[The pit in his stomach tells him that while he wants to believe it he truly thinks he's at fault.]

Maybe...at this point I'm not sure about it anymore.

You don't need to apologize or keep anything from me, ok? I've still got you some soup and tea and medicine in case you need it.

Thank you. I can wait to go to Artemis' then if you want.

Go ahead. I'll come by and visit you both once I've finished speaking with Beck.

I responded. He did too.

That's good.

So how did he do it? Does that mean all three of us can sleep in the same bed now...or no?

We're still friends, but... we might try to get closer. We haven't done anything yet, though

I haven't slept in his bed since you moved in with me, you know that? Not that I'd ever do anything in his bed aside from sleep.

I'm worried about moving too fast.

I see, do you want to sleep in his bed? If I've hogged you too much...sorry I guess.

You've known him longer than you have me so maybe you're actually moving too slow. I don't know shit all about anything I'm talking about though so don't take my word on that.

No I'm comfortable in my bed, especially with you in it.

Ah. Alright...

If you want to get closer to Quentin you can't have me staying in the bed with you every night like we do. You're going to have to spend more time with him eventually you know?

Spend as much time with him as you can, you never know when he might leave too. Maybe if I had given Neuvillette more time he'd still be here.

That doesn’t mean I have to sleep in his bed. We’re just going to try being a couple, Wrio. I’m not even certain he’s serious. He’s never been interested in me like that. The most we have ever done is hug.

No. It’s not your fault he’s gone.

I try to treat every moment with people I care about here like it will be my last. You do know I’ve never had anyone from my home show up here.

Then hug him and see if it leans into a kiss, any kind of kiss.

I know we discussed it's not my fault...but what if it is? You don't know that it's not..not with 100% certainty...none of us do.

and...yeah I know you haven't yet....I still feel bad I did but you haven't...

If I initiate everything in this… it makes me feel as though I’m the only one interested.

I’ll hug him, and if he goes in for a kiss, I’ll know!

[Being shirtless in front of Beck earned… no reaction. He knows the other man is open to taking their relationship further, but… taking steps further feel monumental.]

Then it’s even more my fault for keeping you with me and not letting you have more time with him.

Some day… when you go home you will see him again, and you should take comfort in that.

I’m the first and only one from my world here. When I leave, there may not be another me. There may even be someone from my world who knows and misses me.

It’s better to focus on what you do have instead of trying to take blame.

You really have grown up. Look at you, you called me for advice and yet you're hearing giving me advice and trying to soothe me. I guess I don't need to try and teach you anything anymore do I? I'm proud of you Dera.

I think whatever you decide to do with Quentin will work out in the end, and if you need you know where I am.

I'll try to cheer up and not take the blame on Neuvillette's departure....I promise.

I take care of people I love, Wrio. I am still me even if I've grown and changed in some ways.

But... thank you for recognizing that.

Yes. You're probably right. Do you want me to let you know how it goes, or would you rather not hear about it? I don't want you or Artemis getting jealous, and I've already spoken with him about this. Both of you are aware of this, so... if you think of anything that might help... I'm open to you.

Take however long you need, Wrio.

I think it might be a good thing for you both, Quentin deserves some affection too. He's a good guy.

Just I guess let me know if you two want alone time whenever?

I agree I'll let you know.

Thanks Dera.

I love you.

I'll see you soon and good luck.

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